I threw my hat in to the ring again.
Entered the ring of fire. Said Yes to life.
It’s a TEDx talk organised by my kids’ school. They asked if the parents are interested and I hit reply without thinking too much about it. To be honest, it didn’t really twig properly what I’m signing up for until someone said ‘that’s really brave’. Then the school wrote back asking for more details.
You might think it’s fool hardy, putting my name forward to participate on a global platform that will be recorded and shared widely on social media, without having an actual talk. There may be better ways of doing it. And, I find that the energy shifts when you just say yes.
It’s as if the idea that wants to be born is like a seed of light, looking for the person who'd willing to be the mother and bring it into reality.
Before the seed of light can plant itself firmly and grow in the womb of the mother, the person who says yes, there’s a test. First, The voices of doubt, dissent and limitation kick up a little revolt, for they thrive on the comfortable and familiar. They do not like change nor do they care for the cycle of creation. Their agenda is to keep up the illusion of safety and cling to the known.
To become a mother is to let go of the maiden and enter into a fresh dance with life. She must pay attention to the longing within and not be distracted by the disparaging voices as they demand ‘Who are YOU to?’ or ‘What can YOU possibly have to say!’
The seeds of light have a destiny of their own. They will speak what they want to say, the mother purely allows them to come into form through her, taking a risk with no guarantees on how it will turn out except that she longs to birth these seeds of light. The joy of the creator is in the act of creation for itself. It’s independent of the end result. It's my dream to live this way, in pure creation. I'm not there yet, it's a journey of countless steps, back to the here and Yes.
The organisers are considering the outline I submitted and while I wait to hear back from them, the seed of light is growing and sends out little shoots in the form of ideas and impulses.
The best thing about saying yes to this isn’t going to be the moment when my talk is a huge success or it goes viral and I receive tons of adulation and glory. That may well happen or it might not and I’m not even sure how well equipped I am to handle any of that, should it come to pass.
Truly, the best thing about it is getting out of my own way and experiencing the joy of unselfconscious self expression. The path unfolds from the Yes, the seeds of light take over and do their thing. Sign up for the ride and we get to watch the creator play.
Want to know what happens next? Stay tuned. The talk is scheduled for Jan 20, 2022. I have no idea if I’ll make the final cut as yet, but I’ve got my fingers crossed.
Photo : Autum light in the leaves in Epping
